Sunday 23rd March
(and a little bit of very early Monday)
The very first of my insane ramblings 'Welcome' and after reading this you may think I'm nuts and never look at this blog again but if you do decide to check back and follow along I hope you enjoy the crazy ride that is our life!
Of course the reason this mum is insane is because of the kids lol.. your emotions become bipolar Aaaah.. The unknown side effects of having kid's.
The things that no one tells you till its too late like:
By the end of the day you are ready to pull your hair out till they finally fall asleep and you look at them and think how cute perfect and gorgeous they are.. well till they wake up again! Then you have to stop yourself from killing them till they fall asleep again (Everyone thinks that that's when you get some sanity back, but is it really?? LOL)
I am sure there is many more I could list and probably will later in 'ramblings of a insane mum' but the ones that I want to talk about now ARE the reason I am writing this now.
My personal weird, crazy, completely unexpected side effects of having kids.
The first one came with Leila, INSPIRATION.
I have always loved art and craft... painting, drawing, building, sewing ect. But when I had Leila it intensified and my creative juices flowed more and more I built more things, I painted more, I re purposed furniture, sewed and much, much more. I was inspired so many more things and when I noticed something I would like to have I thought 'I can make that and this is how' and that was it would set out and design whatever it was and do it! Somethings where added to a list as I just didn't have the supplies and unfortunately some never became finished (or started) due to lack of avaliable alone time (another side effect of having kid's that no one tells you about :P)
As time continues on my inspiration just intensifies more and more and we are able to create together! And the time I do get alone I greatly enjoy continuing on with my 'side effect'
The second one came with Amelia, Expression.
I have NEVER been able to verbally express myself properly and I mean NEVER!
Yes I could use painting, drawing or sketching as a tool to express how I was feeling but I couldn't say it.. that is until now it wasn't that I was to scared to speak my mind, it was just that I didn't have the 'words' to do it.
(And i guess I'll admit that AJ has also helped me with this too, as we have in depth conversations and seem to be on the same mental wavlength, well most of the time. hehe. Plus you need an adult to talk to, to really be able to expand your emotional mind verbally and thankfully I found that wonderfully supportive, non judgmental person that I can express my opinion to! But once again that is another story for another time in my insane ramblings)
I was able to put my thoughts down in writing, well somewhat. I wasn't very good at it and didn't really enjoy it as I still couldn't manage to find the right words. But now not only am I able to verbally express myself but I can now write too and not only that but I want to and enjoy it!
I read other blogs, books and websites and it makes me want to tell others about my experiences and expressions too and share with the world my ideas, crafts and family! I now enjoy telling my story and knowing the history will be there for the kids to read when they are older. This 'side effect' is helping me to expand this blog and our life journal.
I really feel I have the 'side effect' caused by Amelia to thank for that!
The last 'side effect' was caused by Naite. I wasn't pregnant with Naite of course so it didn't come to me the same way and maybe all the other 'side effects' are caused the same as this one a mirror image, vibration or wave length, whatever you would like to call it, of a passion that the child has where you feed off/fuel each other to go further.. only time will tell though really.
And that little paragraph there is a slight excerpt of the 'side effect' Naite has given me.. QUESTIONING
I find I want to know more. I want to read, learn and investigate more and more.. I want to expand my mind and self by thinking outside of the box. I have always loved to read but now I find myself reading more the ever! (Well when I can)
This 'side effect' makes me want to open up my mind and makes me believe that we can do and are capable of soooo much more! The possibilities seem endless. It is also causing me to want to learn more to share and teach more. (even if it is slightly scattered brained another 'side effect' no one tells you about)
All these 'side effects' especially combined (along with the kids I guess :P) I really, really am enjoying and I can't wait to see where they take me, the adventures they take our family on and if you are actually reading along to my insane ramblings (maybe your insane too) sharing them with you!
